Can anyone tell me what is LOVE???
Do i lack of LOVE? Why am i acting like this?
Love from closest one, family? Can i meassure Love??
How much Love needed to create a perfect me??
I just cant recall LOVE from my memory in a moment.
LOVE u making me crazy.. u really do.. i dunno what n which is real?? Why?? How??
i hate the word Love in sudden.. i wanna delete this word from my dictionary.
I ll give him another name... ATTRACTED o CONNECTED o CHEMISTRY???
I need to go out.. from this room, from this building, to a carefree place...
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Monday, November 1, 2010
Random story.. just felt like wanna post sth
Before arriving in the US, I just know about discrimination between white and black people in the US from history classes and also movie. I guess that was really long time ago. Those discrimation faded with time. However, i believe that those separation still exist in the US. I don't really have much of examples maybe because I am in Fargo, a not very big city. During my trip to Minneapolis, MN, there was a street that many Afro-Americans waiting for bus or something, without any White-American. From there i can see that the separation is still there. From what i heard from my friends, this kind of separation are more rigid in big cities like NY etc. Besides, i can see that some afro-american students only mixed among themselves.
I hope that i can treat everyone the same. Undeniable, i have little discrimination on foreigners in my country too. It is not really a discrimination but a 'to be more cautious feeling'. So, I believe that there are people out there who are racist, discriminative etc. I can't control what people's thinking. It is not easy to get people's trust. What i can do is be truthful when making friends or doing anything.
I dont know that if my circle of friends are influence by discrimination. In my stay in the US so far, I made more friends of international student than American. Maybe it is because we have something is common. Like all of us away from home, family, friends and country. Thus, we are more connected. As time goes by, i made a lots of American friends too. I dont really feel any discrimation from American. I believe that we are all human, if you interested in me then we can become friend, if you not then we just hi-bye friend. If someone dont want to talk to me, maybe there is something wrong with me or maybe her/him. As long as i think that i am doing nothing wrong, I wont be sad if someone avoided me. I am just being myself :)
Well, if i really did something wrong, I hope there are someone to correct me too. I welcome any feedback from others. Make myself better!
I hope that i can treat everyone the same. Undeniable, i have little discrimination on foreigners in my country too. It is not really a discrimination but a 'to be more cautious feeling'. So, I believe that there are people out there who are racist, discriminative etc. I can't control what people's thinking. It is not easy to get people's trust. What i can do is be truthful when making friends or doing anything.
I dont know that if my circle of friends are influence by discrimination. In my stay in the US so far, I made more friends of international student than American. Maybe it is because we have something is common. Like all of us away from home, family, friends and country. Thus, we are more connected. As time goes by, i made a lots of American friends too. I dont really feel any discrimation from American. I believe that we are all human, if you interested in me then we can become friend, if you not then we just hi-bye friend. If someone dont want to talk to me, maybe there is something wrong with me or maybe her/him. As long as i think that i am doing nothing wrong, I wont be sad if someone avoided me. I am just being myself :)
Well, if i really did something wrong, I hope there are someone to correct me too. I welcome any feedback from others. Make myself better!
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Early October Homecoming Week
American Football!!! Yeah.. it is a game with a ovul ball that never use the foot to play with. What the relationship between football and homecoming???
I never understand what is 'Homecoming' until I experienced it myself. It is a very special event in US universities and schools. I guess most of the football games were in fall. Homecoming Team is the team of the university or sch where the games were played. Homecoming Week is the first week in October where the homecoming team having a games with any other team. So, that how they decide when the homecoming week will be.. interesting..!
Homecoming week isnt just about the football games. There are lot more activities around. Since i am here in US, i got to try them all.. Yup.
First, there was a Homecoming Show, where i have to pay like $5 entrance fees to get in. The theme of the show was Twilight. So, they have some performance and skits bout Twilight. Cheer team, marching band and dance team performed too. The main event in the show was to select the Homecoming King and Queen for the year. Hmm.. i always thought Homecoming King and Queen must be handsome and pretty. But i learned that it was not true. They just have to be famous and have lots of supporter. But for sure, they are all 'somebody' in some associations and they contributes not little to the university and society.
Above is the picture of all the candidates and also me with Homecoming King and Queen 2010.
The next event is Homecoming parade. Where most clubs in the university took part in to get some point. I am in Food Science Club. What interesting bout this parade the audience which are mostly kids. All the kids waiting beside the road with plastic bag or anything they have to collect candies. Of course their parents were with them too. We are giving away candies. haha :) Pity those kids that waited at the end cox we ran out of candies before the end. The audiences give me feelings that they are very supportive to the university event and they really spent time with family.
After the parade in the morning, football time in the afternoon. Bison supporter fill in the hall in no time. It was my first time to see football game in the US. But i am quite dissappointed cox we lost the game. Well, i was in the game until the end, tho i dunno wat the rules for the game. Just by seeing i think i learn a little. hehe :) During the games, i learned some sign language too. I am wondering if it is the same for all in US. Everyone make sound and lift up their hand with fingers moving when the game start.. it is like urging them to start the game :) I followed cox its fun, n i m trying to be supportive!
The last activity i remembered is the Homecoming Dance... that is the day i danced the most in my life i guess. At last i can shake my body a bit and not that stiff. The feeling of let go abit. I enjoyed a lot that night. I love my dress :p
I never understand what is 'Homecoming' until I experienced it myself. It is a very special event in US universities and schools. I guess most of the football games were in fall. Homecoming Team is the team of the university or sch where the games were played. Homecoming Week is the first week in October where the homecoming team having a games with any other team. So, that how they decide when the homecoming week will be.. interesting..!
Homecoming week isnt just about the football games. There are lot more activities around. Since i am here in US, i got to try them all.. Yup.
First, there was a Homecoming Show, where i have to pay like $5 entrance fees to get in. The theme of the show was Twilight. So, they have some performance and skits bout Twilight. Cheer team, marching band and dance team performed too. The main event in the show was to select the Homecoming King and Queen for the year. Hmm.. i always thought Homecoming King and Queen must be handsome and pretty. But i learned that it was not true. They just have to be famous and have lots of supporter. But for sure, they are all 'somebody' in some associations and they contributes not little to the university and society.
Above is the picture of all the candidates and also me with Homecoming King and Queen 2010.
The next event is Homecoming parade. Where most clubs in the university took part in to get some point. I am in Food Science Club. What interesting bout this parade the audience which are mostly kids. All the kids waiting beside the road with plastic bag or anything they have to collect candies. Of course their parents were with them too. We are giving away candies. haha :) Pity those kids that waited at the end cox we ran out of candies before the end. The audiences give me feelings that they are very supportive to the university event and they really spent time with family.
After the parade in the morning, football time in the afternoon. Bison supporter fill in the hall in no time. It was my first time to see football game in the US. But i am quite dissappointed cox we lost the game. Well, i was in the game until the end, tho i dunno wat the rules for the game. Just by seeing i think i learn a little. hehe :) During the games, i learned some sign language too. I am wondering if it is the same for all in US. Everyone make sound and lift up their hand with fingers moving when the game start.. it is like urging them to start the game :) I followed cox its fun, n i m trying to be supportive!
The last activity i remembered is the Homecoming Dance... that is the day i danced the most in my life i guess. At last i can shake my body a bit and not that stiff. The feeling of let go abit. I enjoyed a lot that night. I love my dress :p
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Going from 1st to 6th weeks in NDSU
1st week was the orientation week.. for all international students to know more bout NDSU. I went for most of the talk and skipped some of them too.. the boring one. During the time, it is the best for us to make frens among the international students and also de staff too. At the end of the orientation week, we have a non alcohol party. ' NO ALCOHOL' and 'NO SMOKING' allowed in campus. I like de second one but not the first. Party will be less fun without alcohol though i m not a drinker. Lots ppl dancing, but me, played my first wii games there and other games too. I just hope tat i am able to shake my butt more.. haha :)2nd week was the first week for classes. Yea! My first introduction to US classroom culture. I have big classes and small classes. Overall it is de same like my classes in Msia. Just that the people around me are different. English as main communication language, used all the time. Good for me :) Not to forget bout adding n dropping classes. I dropped a 2 hours and 50 minutes class bout American studies that i have no idea what the lecturer talking about in the first class. She talked and laughed herself. I really have no idea at all what she was talking about. That really a good hint for me to drop the class. Ended up i took up another cours
e. Not bad. For sure better than the earlier one. Besides spendin time goin to class, what i do is aiming for free T-shirt. I joined activities that will give me more free shirt. haha. That helped cox i didnt bring much. I went to do some shopping in downtown wit my frens too. Outing with UGRADERs, looking out for the mall and stuff. Something funny bout de public bus, they dun hav button to press for stopping. They have this yellow string (if u can see in the pic on de left), pull it then it stop. Haha. New stuff to know :) At de end of the week, i joined a trip to Mineapolis, Albertville & Mall of America. Yea!
e. Not bad. For sure better than the earlier one. Besides spendin time goin to class, what i do is aiming for free T-shirt. I joined activities that will give me more free shirt. haha. That helped cox i didnt bring much. I went to do some shopping in downtown wit my frens too. Outing with UGRADERs, looking out for the mall and stuff. Something funny bout de public bus, they dun hav button to press for stopping. They have this yellow string (if u can see in the pic on de left), pull it then it stop. Haha. New stuff to know :) At de end of the week, i joined a trip to Mineapolis, Albertville & Mall of America. Yea!UGRADERs
Bison de Maskot Queue for free T-shirt First rice meal in US, West Arces
Downtown Mineapolis Mall of America Indoor theme park Cute starfishEntered the 3rd week... hmm.. bad.. started to get bored to everything d. The most is the food in dining center. Potatoes and cheese everyday. Worse is homesick or missing someone. Totally lost into WHY I M HERE? Lonely. Haha :) So sad right.. But then that kind of feeling just a while, I have to make myself happy, enjoying my time here.. Maybe i was struggling adapting myself to the environment also.. not really know how or wat i felt. Having trouble making friends?? Not really.. Thing got better entering 4th week.
So the 4th, 5th and 6th weeks i was so busy, with classes mostly, quiz and exam. And also stuff for extra credit. One more difference is de marking system. They are efficient and make full use of IT. Marks will be online after few days. It is not hard to score as long as u r hardworking, put effort into wat i doin. Lecturer lenient in giving marks. During exam, some student finished very fast and left. That really make me nervous. Just like they know everything. Read and circle oni. Salute! Really hav to catch up with them. haha :) Checking email and blackboard everyday has became my habit, it is to keep myself update with things happening in campus, bout classes and so on.
hmm.. i m stil in de 6th week. So far everything alright. Just have to keep myself occupied. Just entered fall.. can really see that the leaves really turn brown, read and yellow. They are so pretty. I love them. Too bad that i broke my camera, if not i will have more picture..
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
My 1st n 2nd day in NDSU, Fargo
Come down from plane, i went to counter n get my luggage. i expect mu luggage reached earlier than me but came out tat 1 of my luggage stil in Denver. I got special ride from Lianne to NDSU, thank to Sri from Moorhead Uni, wic helped me to cal NDSU international office.
Once i reached NDSU, i was refer to those facilitator wic helping us the new comers. There was gang of korean student i made fren wit. luckily they help me wit the things i should do tat day. but stil.. the day is miserable.. i missed some of the things i should do.. missed tb test. end up hav to make appoinment again at de wellness centre. but i believe things happen for good. i got to make appoinment for my mmr test too wic is next month. but they said we cant register without tb test done. i just dunno wat ll happen later. Gambatte for me !!
i have to be possitive n keep goin. really hav to be independent. i m like alone right now. Yeah.. dun give up!!!
i slept well last night.. like tido mati. i need tat after de long travelling. i dun think i hav jet lag. i got myself a pillow, comforter set, cereal, fruits etc to make sure i can sleep well n eat well :) today is another day.. wake up at 7am plus, breakfast at 8am, listen to talk bout ndsu, set up something n now online. haven cal my parent or bf back at home. just emailed jessica et all to tel tat i arrived safe. Yeah.. got to continue n get things done.
till here i think.. n its lunch time :) hav to be full to keep goin.. its cold plus raining out there :)
oh ya.. i met some of the ugraders ady.. but no chance to chat a lot yet. we ll how it goes.
Good Luck for me :)
Dont worry.. i ll take care of myself.
1237pm 18 aug2010
Once i reached NDSU, i was refer to those facilitator wic helping us the new comers. There was gang of korean student i made fren wit. luckily they help me wit the things i should do tat day. but stil.. the day is miserable.. i missed some of the things i should do.. missed tb test. end up hav to make appoinment again at de wellness centre. but i believe things happen for good. i got to make appoinment for my mmr test too wic is next month. but they said we cant register without tb test done. i just dunno wat ll happen later. Gambatte for me !!
i have to be possitive n keep goin. really hav to be independent. i m like alone right now. Yeah.. dun give up!!!
i slept well last night.. like tido mati. i need tat after de long travelling. i dun think i hav jet lag. i got myself a pillow, comforter set, cereal, fruits etc to make sure i can sleep well n eat well :) today is another day.. wake up at 7am plus, breakfast at 8am, listen to talk bout ndsu, set up something n now online. haven cal my parent or bf back at home. just emailed jessica et all to tel tat i arrived safe. Yeah.. got to continue n get things done.
till here i think.. n its lunch time :) hav to be full to keep goin.. its cold plus raining out there :)
oh ya.. i met some of the ugraders ady.. but no chance to chat a lot yet. we ll how it goes.
Good Luck for me :)
Dont worry.. i ll take care of myself.
1237pm 18 aug2010
Saturday, August 14, 2010
I m flying tonight :)
From now i stil got half day in Malaysia before my flight took off...
Wat my feeling? Hmmm... I m prepared for it. dunno wat i m goin to face and dunno how to face it. In my mind.. just go oni la.. haha! Everything will be fine.
Once i reach US later, the nine month starting to count. seem so short. what i m goin to do there for 9 mth? Enjoy enjoy n enjoy!!
wat changes i wan for myself after 9 mth? the old me --------------> the future me.
I kept telling myself tat i wanna live healthy there.. dun wanna become fat. eat healthy, live healthy n EXERCISE the most important. hehe :)
Bout making new fren.. hopefully ll be no problem for me la.. cox everyone else seem ok oni. haha.
Bout study... hmm.. i dunno la... just hope that i can manage :)
Yea... i m looking forward to learn bout others culture, language, tradition, lifestyle etc.. not only American but also other international students. haha :p
Not to forget.. travelling.. haha.. dun hav any plan yet. but for sure.. i ll go travel.. heh :)
I ll be missing my family n frens in Msia. doesnt matter.. we can webcam :)
n also Malaysian food. Dun worry.. i think i bringin enuf supply. hehe
one thing tat i wanted to leave it in msia... guess wat... my fyp lo... shhhh...
bit excited now.. ll get more n more later..
dunno i ll cry onot le later?? haha
ish... not my first time to overseas also.
I m so LUCKY :)
I LL BE BETTER PERSON WHEN I M BACK!!! yeah~~
Wat my feeling? Hmmm... I m prepared for it. dunno wat i m goin to face and dunno how to face it. In my mind.. just go oni la.. haha! Everything will be fine.
Once i reach US later, the nine month starting to count. seem so short. what i m goin to do there for 9 mth? Enjoy enjoy n enjoy!!
wat changes i wan for myself after 9 mth? the old me --------------> the future me.
I kept telling myself tat i wanna live healthy there.. dun wanna become fat. eat healthy, live healthy n EXERCISE the most important. hehe :)
Bout making new fren.. hopefully ll be no problem for me la.. cox everyone else seem ok oni. haha.
Bout study... hmm.. i dunno la... just hope that i can manage :)
Yea... i m looking forward to learn bout others culture, language, tradition, lifestyle etc.. not only American but also other international students. haha :p
Not to forget.. travelling.. haha.. dun hav any plan yet. but for sure.. i ll go travel.. heh :)
I ll be missing my family n frens in Msia. doesnt matter.. we can webcam :)
n also Malaysian food. Dun worry.. i think i bringin enuf supply. hehe
one thing tat i wanted to leave it in msia... guess wat... my fyp lo... shhhh...
bit excited now.. ll get more n more later..
dunno i ll cry onot le later?? haha
ish... not my first time to overseas also.
I m so LUCKY :)
I LL BE BETTER PERSON WHEN I M BACK!!! yeah~~
Thursday, July 29, 2010
To My Dearest Frens in PSU
Sawaddeekha roomates & floormates,
Chan dee jai jing jing tee dai yoo kub roommates narak narak mak : Fatoon, Nola, Asmak kub Nah.
Mai luem sao sao kang horng, Yah, Yam, Lee kub Wanid tee wa tua eng pen Miss Thailand.
Chan kob chai mak mak roommates khong chan tee doo lae thon chan yoo nai hor. Kob chai Fatoon tee hai chan non thiang khong kau, lae Fatoon kor thong non kap Asmak.
Tuk tuk khon kor chui chan mak, sorn chan phasa thai, lae chuan tan arharn doi kan
Chan roo sheuk dee jai mak mak pror tuk tuk khon doo lae chan dee mak.
Kob chai jing jing na. Wela chan yoo doi kan kub tuk tuk khon, chan ja kor tord tah mee punha tam keurd kuen.
Kob jai Ah kub Dini doi kha.
Na song san tee rao mai dai doo tawan tok doi kan, tae wa chan chuer rao tong mee ar kard tee ja dai doo doi kan eek krang.
Cham wai na wela doo tawan tok kor thong kid tueng chan na. Kob chai tee suer somtam hai kin
Mee krai krai tee mai dai arn chuer ork, kor tord na.. tae wa chan mee kep roob khong tuk tuk khon nai sa mong khon chan.
Yang ngai kor dee jai dai pope kub tuk tuk khon.. chan ja chum wai tuk tuk wee na tee we la rao yoo doi kan.
Rakna chubu chubu :p
Chan dee jai jing jing tee dai yoo kub roommates narak narak mak : Fatoon, Nola, Asmak kub Nah.
Mai luem sao sao kang horng, Yah, Yam, Lee kub Wanid tee wa tua eng pen Miss Thailand.
Chan kob chai mak mak roommates khong chan tee doo lae thon chan yoo nai hor. Kob chai Fatoon tee hai chan non thiang khong kau, lae Fatoon kor thong non kap Asmak.
Tuk tuk khon kor chui chan mak, sorn chan phasa thai, lae chuan tan arharn doi kan
Chan roo sheuk dee jai mak mak pror tuk tuk khon doo lae chan dee mak.
Kob chai jing jing na. Wela chan yoo doi kan kub tuk tuk khon, chan ja kor tord tah mee punha tam keurd kuen.
Kob jai Ah kub Dini doi kha.
Na song san tee rao mai dai doo tawan tok doi kan, tae wa chan chuer rao tong mee ar kard tee ja dai doo doi kan eek krang.
Cham wai na wela doo tawan tok kor thong kid tueng chan na. Kob chai tee suer somtam hai kin
Mee krai krai tee mai dai arn chuer ork, kor tord na.. tae wa chan mee kep roob khong tuk tuk khon nai sa mong khon chan.
Yang ngai kor dee jai dai pope kub tuk tuk khon.. chan ja chum wai tuk tuk wee na tee we la rao yoo doi kan.
Rakna chubu chubu :p
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